To look to the past and find no emotion there where at one point there was, is beautiful.
It's a feeling of relief when you see that person that once drove you out of your mind insane and feel nothing. To see him making flirting eyes with another who looks nothing like you and feel fine. I appreciate the times I had with this fellow. Learned much about myself at that time a couple of years ago. Taught me to equal myself with another woman. I learned that age isn't always a factor of wisdom. I learned that you can do no wrong and still have someone turn against you. When you give your heart to someone they can decide to tear it to pieces. This man and I were not meant to be together. It taught me to look at the real circumstances in a situation and see that I shouldn't put myself in that situation. Learning from those relationships that cause you heartache is the reason to be in those relationships in the first place. I am so happy to be in this place due to the fact that I am now 21. Being this age is interesting. I think about the place I am, having so many jobs and working to have my own apartment. Living a life seeking spiritual endeavors rather than physical... In this state things are beautiful no matter what the circumstances. As long as there is trust in my heart and faith in my mind.