Avoidance doesn’t serve anyone.
Like one big pile of bird shit everything lands right on you in the end.
You can try to leave your feelings in the dark but soon enough
A light will shine.
You might cry for a moment.
It’s the truth in your face.
I know I don’t want to see it all the time.
Theres a saying, “The Truth Hurts.”
Well isn’t that the truth.
It’s Irony. There is an amusment in it all.
It is the realization that this is life.
We live in an imperfect world with imperfect people.
Yet we expect such perfection. We are strict in our demands.
There is no lieniency. It’s a harsh world we live in.
I realize this more and more as time goes on.
I am left with the question, “What can I do?”
Laughter is the key to the heart. It loosens the screws we held onto so tight. My words are simply this. I am not perfect.
Neither is anyone else.
I must apologize for actions I have taken that have crushed the spirits of those I love. My intentions are never of destruction.
However within my own life I have caused much destruction upon myself aswell as others. For this I am sorry.
I ask for understanding. I ask for forgiveness from those who have taken a blade due to my antics.
All I can say is I am working on being closer to perfection in my own eyes, in the eyes of my Higher Power.
Some call it God or Buddha or Allah or Christ or a myriad of other names.
I am choosing to call it my Higher Power for the sake of this note.
My Higher Power calls to me and it can reform me.
One day all will be closer to correct in his eyes and mine own.
Until then I’ve always loved you all even when I’ve been at my worst.
Learning now to love myself and value all that I have.
Thank You for your patience.