He stared at his computer screen thinking of what to write.
A few shots of rum previously consumed inspire his thoughts.
The heater makes a loud sound, it's warm now. Cigarette smoke fills the air.
He's relaxed and in his own world. A dreamlike state induced by his thoughts of the world. He's by himself but he isn't lonely. He want's to touch himself and puts on some naked ladies kissing each other. His thoughts are of the day tomorrow and the events of the evening. He ponders how he will continue to conduct his business. His phone vibrates, It's yet another one of those women who want his attention. He could care less of them. He scratches his back and looks in the mirror. The expression on his face alludes to his feelings of sufficiency in himself. He knows he can do whatever his mind sets to. He knows he could have whatever it is he wants if it's truly what he wants. Then he meets her. She turns his world upside down and makes him fall to his knees. He will do anything for her. Be wherever she wants, do whatever she needs. He falls in love with her. Things are magic for a while. She loves what he'll do for her and she takes him for granted. She can't handle his love and she breaks him. She leaves him and lies to him and kills his love. He's left with himself once more and he begins to enjoy it, even more than before. He wants to be with himself. He loves to do what he pleases and go where he wants to, when he wants to. The feeling of freedom from this gazelle is driving him to complete and utter independence. He goes months without her and forgets of all he did for her. Suppressing the memory of times he'd done things he didn't want to for her own satisfaction. With all things suppressed he enjoys looking at a new woman. This girl is pretty, most would call her cute. She has a high level of sex appeal, and it seems shes taken a new interest in him. She laughs at his stupid jokes. She doesn't want any expectations or attachments. She knows he's been wounded just by looking at him and takes sympathy for his state. She longs to lift his spirit and make him happy. That's where this girl is all wrong. This girl is smart enough to know what she's getting herself into but she does it anyway.
The girl used to think he was annoying and wanted nothing to do with him. She used to ignore his phone calls and could care less if he thought about her. She thought if this was the case there would be no harm in being physical. Not to mention she wanted her own freedom to do as she pleased. She thought he's cute I might as well have some fun. That's where it began. It continued in this way. No commitments. They both continued with their lives as usual, doing whatever it was they pleased.However, the more she was with him the more of him she wanted. It surprised her that she even wanted him. She accepted him and wanted nothing more but for his happiness. Doing all that she could to keep him happy, she gave herself to him. Whenever he wanted her she was there. That was another mistake on her part. Regardless of all the mistakes made this man had been broken. He was broken by another who couldn't handle his love. So why should he give his love again to be broken a second time by someone else? He didn't. I don't blame him. That girl shouldn't have gotten involved with him anyway. She loved it while it lasted and so did he. It's over now. Sadly, he wont fight to keep her.