Oh the curse of wanting what you can't have and what you can have you don't want.
Is it because we like a challenge? Perhaps.
Would it be if we got the thing we wanted...we wouldn't want it anymore?
Possibly.
It's all bull anyway.
What if we don't even know what we want?
Or what if what we think we want, isn't even good for us?
Let go of the questions. They lead not to answers but only to confusion.
The mind thinks to hard and to fast. These questions will pass.