This site is beauty to me. I have been wanting to have an outlet for my writings. Alright so let me start with something we can all relate to. "Relationship Games."
What is going on with Games... I for one hate them because I can't follow the rules. I was once told to read that book, "The Rules." Yeah I read it and I knew that I couldn't follow that crap. If I want to talk to someone I want to talk to someone. I don't care if I have just had sex with them. I mean of course because I just had sex with them made me want to call them more. Whatever the case may be... I just can't follow the rules and I feel that as long as I can't follow the fucking rules I am never going to get married. Not like I am going to get married anytime soon. Unless I find the man of my dreams... Really though. Don't ever call the guy... Don't go and see them if they haven't made plans a few days before hand... Really though I know damn well that the men of this world LOVE that crap. They love to want a woman and wonder if she wants them back. As a woman I can't stand to want someone and wonder if they want me back. I just want to know! I want to know if you think we could have something good together. If not then Great but at least to be told, "Hey Look I liked having sex with you but I don't want to date you." Fine. Usually my answer would be the same. Not this time. Why though? Why? I don't know. How am I supposed to know why I wanted it in the morning? When I never do. I remember some nights when I was around you and I didn't ever think of you the way I think of you now. Man. I just want to Love and be Loved in Return like Moulin Rouge. I know that's not the purpose of life and I know that Loving someone doesn't always make you happy. I know that being Peaceful makes you happy. Having Peace of Mind makes all of us happy. I still want Love though.